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In. Bleeping. Different. Well, another day as a live-in nanny. They seem to lay themselves out rather quickly. I just kind of fade into them...
I miss Green Bay. So much. This year was one of the best years of my life. I mean, I really looked forward to going to school. I didn't get into one single physical fight, and I really had a lot of fun...
I move back down here, and within the first week I'm fighting. Of course , I tried to tone it down when I thought I was pregnant. Now that I know I'm not, all these people that used to piss me off back the fuck off.
I don't like me down here. I mean, I have to start being the way I used to be. Not drugs and alchohol and slut wise... But attitude wise. And who I hang around with. I mean, up in GB, I was seriously in a good mood a lot, and I even toned down a LOT with the cussing, unless pissed off.
Here, every other fucking word is fuck, and I have to act... tough. I mean, yeah, I'll beat your ass if you piss me off... but I hating acting tough. Mike gave me a knife. *sigh* a knife. because now that i'm back, i hang around ppl that live in shady places and do shady things. It's like, when I lived in WI, I had time to hang around people and do fun things. Not saying that the people here aren't fun... but they're just... illegal fun.
They know I don't really approve, and that i'm not gonna surround myself with that shit anymore... but the only reason that they still hang around me, and i quote Mooch, "Mac, you're fuckin hot. Look at us. We're all fucking hot. We're the beautiful people of this city." So.. hanging around me improves your image or mine?
I can FEEL their eyes on me when I walk into a room. I mean, today, I was all like, swimsuit adorned, and was walking outside, and I could feel all of them staring at me. Except for the girls- who were already outside.
I guess I'm suppose to be some prize that they all have to protect and take care of and mold... Yeah. I don't want to be. I don't LIKE it. I really don't even like them. But I live with it.
Lately, I just kind of... watch my own life. I see it happening, 10 feet away. I see me.
July 14 2005, 19:30:07 UTC 6 years ago
oh pick me
i know how to solve it! come here! lolAnonymous
July 14 2005, 20:08:32 UTC 6 years ago
mike again
no wut? yur a bitch. you say that stuff on here and don't say anything to us. if green bay was so graet go bakc. seriously mj i gave you a knife that cost a lot of money when i could have got abby somethin. thats my daughter. so be greatful. we fuckin love you so don't treat us liek shit cuz you think yur friends up there are better. fuck you.July 14 2005, 20:14:27 UTC 6 years ago
Re: mike again
No, Mike, Fuck YOU. Don't fucking tell me what to do and not to do because you want me to be all happy you bought me a knife. That knife is a symbol of the reason I moved to Green Bay. You should have bought Abby something. Because the only attention that knife is going to get is from dust. I didn't ask for you to come down here and see me, now did I? And this touching me thing, isn't going to fucking work. I'm happy you don't hit Sarah. Don't remind me of that every 2 seconds. I'm happy you love your kid.The facts are however, you did screw up in the past and knocked me around a couple of times, you did lie to me about having a daughter telling me she was a stillborn, and you did tell me you would do anything to get back together with me yesterday. Take your fucking knife back. I don't need it.
Tell all of "our" little friends that I'm an ungrateful bitch, too, so maybe you guys won't drag me into this shit. I'm not going to be guilty by association.
And learn how to fucking spell before you EVER try to cuss me out online again, okay? You're a 19 year old peice of shit, and though your age may change, that's all you'll ever be.
What're you gonna do about it? Hit me?
*laughs*
July 15 2005, 12:58:03 UTC 6 years ago
Just to fix a few things.
A lot of you might not have understood what Mike said because he wrote it in a language called Fuckface Idiot. So I'll correct it for him.What he wrote:
no wut? yur a bitch. you say that stuff on here and don't say anything to us. if green bay was so graet go bakc. seriously mj i gave you a knife that cost a lot of money when i could have got abby somethin. thats my daughter. so be greatful. we fuckin love you so don't treat us liek shit cuz you think yur friends up there are better. fuck you.
What he MEANT:
Do you know that you are a bitch? You are a bitch, because you type things on here that you could never say to us face-to-face. I don't understand why you don't want to get your ass kicked. Since you were so happy in Green Bay, I believe it would be in your best interests to move back. Seriously. All I want is your happiness.
I bought you a knife when I could have bought my daughter a gift because I want to get into your pants. I wouldn't have used that money to buy Abby a gift anyway. That was just a half assed attempt to make you feel horrible.
We don't know what love is, but we think that you hold it in you, because we like to look at you. Don't treat us like shit because a lot of us smell like parties and pot and can't get laid unless our "girlfriends" (the girls that use us for drugs) are drunk. Your friends up there are probably better than us.
Fuck you, for finding happiness.